Future Love - Kristinia DeBarge
i noticed this a while ago that i'm always angry on the inside.
like, seriously, all the fucking time. i know it's because i hold grudges and i let people get to me and i won't adress it because i'm pretending that i don't care. so i'm just gonna vent for a second.
i can't lose the weight i want to save my fucking life. doing shit right is taking forever and i do nothing but gain the weight back. i'd hate to go back to that not so healthy method i was trying in middle school, but i have no patience.
where the fuck do you get off telling someone they have "too much" confedence? like, for really real ????? there's not such thing until you bring down others just to make yourself feel better, then yeah, you need to calm you ego down. if there a 1,000 pound woman is walking down the street in a bikiniof course i'ma be grossed out but she is probably getting fucked by someone she loves and who she loves back... how did she get that man? her confidence. obviously so who the fuck am i to hate on that. i don't gotta wake up to that every morning so why should i go on and on about it. but if you look like a damn huney combs rat, walking around like you the shit & talking about how everyone else looks bum... you need to do the world a favor and fucking kill yourself.
there's this guy in my art class and he just got assigned to my homeroom for some ungodly reason, he's so fuckign ignorant. he refers to females as bitches. i can't stand that word unless it's like "it's hot up in this bitch" or "she tried to stab me, she's a physco bitch". so he always tlaking abotu how he fucked this bitch or talking to this bitch blah blah blah. one day he said " i want a bitch that's short, lightskinned with long hair sexy eyes and thick ass body. that's my dream bitch". so i'm sitting there offeded for many reasons. 1. "bitch" 2. the fact that he thinks his ignorant ass can pull such a girl. 3. people seriously still think like that. no, i have no problem with his prefrence, i don't give a damn i don't want this beenie man wanna be. but when you say it ignorantly like that, it really bugs me. i try & say it doesn't bother me, but it does. and the media is no help. "every girl in the world" is not a "long haired thick redbone". some girls have short hair, medium hear, some girls are "brown bones" O_O [shows you how stupid that term is], and some girls are skinty. indeed people are supposed to have mind of their own & not supposed to let Tv/Radio influce that and yadda yadda. but the reality of it is.
it does. when you hear and see the same swhit over and over again it starts to set in. when you see the same light skinned girls with no waiste and unbelievably huge asses dance their naked selves around BET all day. it. sets. in. i'm not saying that some people aren't honestly attracted to them but for the most part, it's influenced by TV and ignorance. and you can ususally tell the difference. ignorance = "i only date lightskinned/darkskinned girls/guys" a person with a brain says "I tend to be more attracted to.... there is a big difference honestly. a couple weeks ago i was approached by some mother fucker in the grocery store. we was having small talk for a minute while i was deciding wheather i want ed double stuffed or regualr oreos. [clears throat] anywho. when he was about to leave fucker had the nerve to say "if you was lightskinned i would holla" no fucking lie. and you know what i said... hm?.... HMMM? i told that mutherfucker that even if his eyes were straight, i wouldn't holla back and he walked off. like, what made him think that was okay?thank you rap music & parents for doing such a wonderful job of raising our children, the people who will be reproducing our future. thanks :) i guess this bug me because i've been left for lighter girls so many times. sometimes they weren't even cute but each it their own =/
music is pissing me off lately. black music in particular. people look at me funny when i say i don't listen to the ghetto bullshit that is K97.5... but it's like... wtf is on there. i recently learned of "icecream paint job" and "booty due"?????? for real? when i saw the videos for these failures of music... i damn near wanted to kill myself. people have still failed to tell me why lil wayne is the "best rapper alive" because honestly all i hear is "pussy bitch nigga fuck" when i listen to his shit & i feel like my IQ is being lowered with every word he says... sings... or "raps". chris brown.... please come back. why isn't teyana taylor like the hottest shit right now? oh yeah, she isn't fucking for tracks or singing/rapping about getting her twat licked. she actually works and writes. how could i forget =o
my family is just O_O i can't even put the shit into words.
i cannot.
i'm gonna stop relying on other opinions. judging from the previews, i thought tiny & toya, or as i like to call it "Mrs. Piggy & Not Waynes Exwife Show" was horrible. and people around me, besides a few basic hoes, were saying it was bad... yet they kept watching, kept saying how bad it was. i finally watched for myself and it's really not that bad. tiny's voice annoyed the shit outta me at first, now it's just funny. and tiny is not as ghetto as i thought, of course she's ghetto but it's likethe cool down to earth kind not the "i feed my children koolaide and doritos for breakfast" type of ghetto. i couldn't see it before but now i can definity see why T.I. is with her. and toya is just gorgeous. such a pretty girl stuck on such a ugly/sorry excuse for a man. i wanna hug that poor child. smh
tis all until i get pissed off about something else.
